Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Grey

in a world where color rules,
how can it be denied?
Grey
and all the subtle shite that goes along with it.

Grey can be my favorite color
it's non-committal
it's neutral without being so . . .
it's lupine
it's tough to figure out.

Grey things and the people that love them
because they have few things to love , of any color.
Grey may be a cloudy sky
gunmetal; confederate uniforms
Grey is this but it's--
Grey may be--
something to hang your hat on.

Grey happened, without warning.
Grey descended from the sky
Grey felt sorrow but was brutally honest with itself
Grey means no easy answer
no matter what the controversy,
Grey takes you by surprise.

Grey likes long explanations
is a panacea
and a killjoy
assassin with a conscience.
the thoughts of a sinner and a saint are Grey.
and it's always
reliably
blah

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Notes to the Photos that Follow

My Peru pics are submitted for your viewing enjoyment. i chose what i thought were the best, and most representative ones. All of the photos were taken on disposable cameras, mostly Kodak, though i think we used a Fuji too, and there was one black and white cam that Abby and i agreed would make for some artsy shots, though i'm disappointed that one photo i took of a nearly full moon rising over the town of Puno on Lake Titicaca didn't come out (and is therefore not featured here). there were bunches of rejects: early on, the tendency is to embrace those out-the-window-of-the-bus shots as gold, pure, mom-pleasing gold, but they rarely come out. Another seducer of the tourist with camera is the landscape shot, and in a place with the geography (topography) of Peru, landscapes unfold around every corner. our trip to Colca Canyon, reachable from Arequipa by car (though, as we learned later, we payed way too much to the small tour company), should have offered vistas unrivaled in the west hemisphere, as the Canyon is said to be deeper, and more dramatic-looking, than our own Grand Canyon. unfortunately, as you can see from the photos, the giant cloud that engulfed the overlook rendered the canyon completely and utterly hidden from view, meaning no breathtaking sightings of soaring condors, majestic scavengers. there are shots of us looking out at the Colca Valley, west of the canyon and uncovered by clouds; you can make out the ancient agricultural terraces carved into the sides of the rocky terrain to maximize land area and facilitate easier irrigation, feats performed by the Pre-Columbian peoples of that region a long time ago (there's a picture of Abby and Sean, metaphorically connected by a tiny bridge over the Colca River, tiny because of how far off it is, though in reality likely large and certainly more recently constructed). Our Machu Picchu shots are easy to identify, as they include numerous views of the ancient Inca holy city-retreat, constructed, i think, in the 15th century, then abandoned when the Inca went to war with the Spanish. Despite vanquishing and all but obliterating the Inca, who were an elite ruling-class of people, distinct from the indigenous pre-Columbians who had lived there for thousands of years before the rise of the Inca, the Spanish never found Machu Picchu. the sacred valley is fed by the Urubamba River, which surrounds the Machu Picchu site on three sides, thousands of feet below. It is an incredible natural site, one that offers incredible natural sights, and it is thrillingly extreme because of both the wonderous setting of mountain peaks and valley vistas, and, more cerebrally, for its very remoteness--surely there can be no place like this on earth-- and for the staggering knowledge of how much human effort went into the construction of the city (coupled with the knowledge of how little concrete knowledge we actually have of the Inca). i chewed coca while exploring the site, which was lush and green. the coca helped me combat the exhaustion of hiking on little sleep, and yeah, we were at close to 10,000 feet. Coca, a leaf, is and was revered as a holy substance by Inca and pre-Columbian peoples alike (the Quechua, Aymara "Indians", and others, the Amazonian peoples), and has been cultivated by humans for 20,000 years. the leaf, chewed or brewed in tea, is non-narcotic, but it has a noticeable, though subtle effect. Check out our photos of Lake Titicaca: Abby and i took a bunch of shots from our day on the lake, which was sunny and beautiful and required vigilance with regards to sunscreen. there's a black and white one of me swimming in the lake, which i did for approximately 30 seconds, though it was refreshing and not so cold. Lake Titicaca's claim to fame is its absurd name, and the fact that it rests at a robust 13,000 or so feet above sea level, making it the highest altitude navigable lake in the world. it was hard to sleep in Puno the first two nights, pulse racing, emotions high. then there is Cusco, the old Inca capitol; a bunch of photos, many B & W's, and a few featuring William, a friend we made there. William sold finger puppets to tourists, mainly by throwing them a game of guilt and charm, not necessarily in that order. often, a tourist in Peru finds him or herself being approached by people selling things, and the phrase that one employs most often is "no gracias". but in William's case, he quickly realized that i wasn't going to be buying so many hand puppets, but was susceptible to more subtle courtship. he would bound over to us frequently, and we spent one of our last days in Peru with him, at the courtyard of a church overlooking Cusco, playing with a beat-up hackey-sack of his, and i broke my flip-flop, to his great delight. if i ever return to Peru, one thing i'll do, and maybe even the secret reason why i would return, would be to find William. i love that kid. lastly, there are pictures from Lima, featuring our little band of brothers and a sister or two. more later: for now, enjoy.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Peru Pics I



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Monday, March 20, 2006

Peru Poems

Away

A hemisphere away
tears fall from cheek to shoe
you make it seem like being blue is something to write home about
I drink a beer that shares the name of this city-town
a long way down
a lonely road paved with no gold
porque people came and took it away
long ago




Ride To Colca

from sleeping sound and still to riding away
from Arequipa
still sleeping, or trying to, being in the back of a minivan
while a man downshifts
and powers up
(a growl that nags my ears)
and up and
through the clouds
How the fuck can he see through foggy-dark abyss?
through closed eyes, i sit and wonder
(the roads "extremely dangerous")
Doze
altiplano
hu, jeez, cold as llama tits now
and out the window it looks like the naked face of the moon
i doze again wearing fleecy gloves
but jerk awake as we round a bend
afraid but then
the sun breaks through the mist
and from a stupendous height
we stare down
down down
and it's green all around




Untitled

Want to feel so small
want to
Want to feel so small
feel so small

Man and mountain
make me miss
make me kiss and tell
My primordial journey

Paragraph and page
words eroding
petrified
the tale of time and Force

Forced to forget and unable to remember
an old melody
we hummed along with

So, high our spirits--
hey, soaring condors
and umade beds
left like a trail of tears in a hundred little hotels
a hundred dreams, most forgotten
a hundred letters
written home
a hundred crosses on the side of the road

We stopped at scrabble towns
dust and ash
hard burnt friendly faces abounded
and a kid with a slingshot, he pantomimed
shoots me
i felt small, i pretend to fall

Oh boy




Three, Two, One . . .

In being all together like this
can it be possible that in one instant we would stop?

'it's not a lie if you believe it's true'

I stop and stare at soap
and brightly colored woven wares
and promptly knock my head against a low hanging awning
yawning and rubbing my eyes

I'm starting to realize that it probably doesn't matter and that i shouldn't lie.
To myself, oh sure, but something else . . .
something a little more-
shouldn't lie
believe it's true

I believe the both of you, and more

My eyes burned
You, sir, are in a state of flux
Flux to you all
it's just my luck
locked up like
braces, stubborn, then, unstuck
Fick as Fieves and feverish
blinded
i stared at the eclipse
thought of escape
to live like this, such a mistake
to think, we burned so bright
so upright and true
you and me and manny others counted in our ranks
brothers, sisters
I'm all thumbs now
maestro with paulsey
but i remember, i crawled
my left hand stratched out before me

-3/12/06




William, et. al.

Nighttime on a plane is a time to reflect on things, that is, if you are still awake
Every little shimmy that shakes the passengers makes my pen pause
Past is present at this moment
Thinking back
Wondering what i'll think of the voyage if i make it home tomorrow
Tomorrow does not consider the people i met along the way and what they might be doing with themselves, a world away
Not so far from my thoughts
A man in his mid-forties runs a comb through his long hair and decides that he need not trim his beard
And William, god willing, sleeps a blessed sleep, growing boy with aging soul
The plane rocks and sways and i stop again, for the time being
I'm never sure of what lies written on the page
I only hope the page endures, tucked into the pages of a book
I hope someday to finish